The One Where I Pretty Much Just Give Up

(Caution... not nice language ahead)

Yeah... I wasn't going to blog until I had good news for you. But today... today I just have to get this all off my chest.

Tomorrow was to be my last day at WF (I can't actually say the name of the company... we were told the name can't appear on Blogs and Facebook). In case you are coming late to the party, about a month ago I was told that my job was being eliminated as of July 17th. It was offered to apply for another job in the Asheville office, but there were many other people applying and I have some issues with a person in that office and so I ASKED "If I DON'T apply for it, will there be any ramifications to being eligible for unemployment?" Not that I could see how it would, because MY JOB... the one I HAD... was being eliminated. That should be the only thing that matters. I was told

IT WOULD NOT AFFECT MY ELIGIBILITY.

Today I said something to my boss about getting a letter that SAID that my position had been eliminated. She said she'd get that for me, and e-mailed our regional guy.

He sent me an e-mail (actually copied me in on his reply to her)... essentially it said "If I remember correctly, Lizzy chose not to apply for the job in Asheville, therefore she voluntarily terminated employment, so she would not be eligible for job elimination status."

WHAT THE F*CK?????????

I immediately replied to him saying "What job did I voluntarily terminate??? I can't terminate what I don't have!!!! The job I CURRENTLY HAVE IS BEING ELIMINATED. SO IN TERMS OF THIS POSITION, I DID NOT VOLUNTARILY TERMINATE ANYTHING!!!!"

He came back and said because I had the chance to apply and didn't, well.. you get it... same BLAH BLAH BLAH as before.

The rage was SO GREAT I couldn't even BREATH. I was bawling.. my boss was in a meeting. I was trying to answer the phones and carry on business while my world was FALLING FLIPPING APART.

Wanna know how much money we're talking about here??? Wanna know how much I qualify for??? Ready??

$211.00 a week. $844.00 a month. My GREAT BIG HUGE COMPANY THAT POSTED RECORD PROFITS LAST QUARTER is SQUABBLING OVER $5486.00. Hey... I bet that's about how much our office manager has been reimbursed this year for claiming client dinners when it's actually his daughter and girlfriend.

My boss got MAD... LIVID even. At the corporate dorks who gave HER the wrong information in about 30 different ways. And my branch manager got REALLY mad and started yelling at the regional guy.

Now... I could relate about 4 hours of drama here... but I didn't enjoy living through it once, and don't care to do it again, and if I didn't like it, you surely won't either.

The office I'm in now has an open position, for a job different from mine. When I was ORIGINALLY told about this position, I was told it would be PART TIME. So... that won't cut it, so I made plans. I gave notice on my apartment. Then today it was revealed the the job was going to be FULL TIME. And technically I don't qualify for the position... and I gave notice on my apartment. And they have someone else renting my apartment next month. SO... today I applied for the job. And I'm not going to get it, because I don't' qualify, but it WILL make them all happy and so then when I'm done with my current job IN TWO WEEKS NOW... I'll be eligible for unemployment.

Which is fine. Other than COMPLETELY TURNING MY PLANS TO SHREDS. I had PLANNED to spend next week in Atlanta, hitting the streets for a job. Then going to Minnesota for 5 days to get the girls, then coming back to Atlanta, and if I don't yet have a job, sending The Ladies to their dad's while I kept looking. Well.. NOW... I'm working next week. And Half of the following week. While still packing up my apartment in the evenings and weekends. And then going to Minnesota. Then coming back and....

yeah... at that point the Crystal Ball goes dark.

So in the end? I guess in the end I'm a little better off - cause I get about 8 extra days of pay... but seriously... today... was from HELL.

Oh... and update on looking for a job. My closest estimate is that I've applied for about 300 jobs. I have gotten NO RESPONSE (other than a few thanks but no thanks).... Yeah... that's just GREAT for ones ego.

But... it's gonna be okay. I have faith. I'm not going to die and I'm not going to be homeless... that's all that matters.