About me.....

I've found some blog-friends who are pretty new to my story, so I thought I'd do a brief recap of my 36 years (ha - first I typed 26... not hardly)

It was a dark and stormy night... no... it was a cold and snowy day in Minnesota - I was born.. 5 weeks LATE...

My parents divorced when I was 4. Dad remarried, mom didn't. I am an only child with my mom, the oldest of 3 with my dad.

I met a man online when I was 25. I thought I was in love. What I was was scared that he was my only chance to get what I wanted (be married and have kids) so I married him. Bad idea. We got married in October of 1997.

The best things to come out of that marriage were Kj (Dec 98) and Ka(May 03). He's a good person. He's not a good dad or husband. He and Kj have had a very difficult relationship, and I finally decided for the best interests of my girls' futures, and mine for that matter, that we needed to be done. So last fall he moved from Minnesota back to Tennessee. Now, having grown up with divorced parents, I know what it's like to only see your dad a few weeks out of the year. That just wasn't acceptable to me, plus I knew that he would be a better dad for a couple days (weekends) than over a long period of time (summer vacation), plus... I just needed to get out of where I was. Everyone knew me - everyone knew what had happened. I wanted a fresh start. So, in March I packed up my girls and moved to North Carolina. My house is still for sale in Minnesota, and most likely going to end up in foreclosure. Which bites... And we're having fairly substantial financial issues... which REALLY bite... but I don't know if I've ever been HAPPIER in my whole life.

Right now Ka is staying with her dad till August (they get along much better - and I can't afford daycare and if he's not going to work, then he can take care of her) I'm SUPER excited because I get her this weekend.... YEAH!!!

Kj is with my dad and step-mom in San Diego. She did this last summer too (to get her out of the house and away from her dad, and get her some positive male attention). She's have a tough time right now... she called 4 times this weekend upset and not feeling well. I talked her down each time, but it hurts. This fall when she gets home I need to find some counseling for her. Her relationship with her dad (and I'll be honest, I've screwed some things up too) has really affected how she sees the world, and I don't want her carrying that burden forever.

The good news - I have a wonderful guy in my life... who's helping me to find me, to get my life in order, to learn things about myself I never ever knew...

Okay - so that's a little background. Kind of depressing. Sorry about that. I promise that won't happen often.

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